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Monday, April 26th, 2010
7:57 pm	Now what So my last post advised of the split between the man I moved here for and married. After he left I thought I would stay here, in Australia, and see what happens. I find that I thoroughly appreciate the health care system and how laid back the people are here. I now own more material items in my life then I ever have, like a washing machine, dryer, a huge fridge, and all the other things you find you need in life, not to mention a cool car. I have my own buisness, and while not making me millions its mine and it does help, along with my other job. So I am self sufficient, I have everything I need here for a life on my own. Nothing is missing in that regard. However I have two friends, in the last 4 1/2 years I have made two friends I can call my own. I dont really care for the climate, while its beautiful here I have to admit I miss Oregon, and the mountains I am tired of these tiny 'hills'. So its a dilemma. Stay here with everything I have and really try to carve out a niche for myself, or go home and start my life all over again for like the 3rd time. This is what I am pondering, and I know I will ponder for sometime. If I come home I need to make sure its for the right reasons. Anyways this is just me venting my thoughts to those I care about. I hope you are all well and know you're in my thoughts and I miss you. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 19th, 2010
11:41 pm	This is me So its been awhile since the last post, I use facebook too much these days. Just an update for anyone who doesnt know Drew and I have seperated and are filing for divorce. It was my idea as I ended up falling out of love with him. For now I will be staying in Aus trying to get to know myself better, in time I might come back home I am just not sure right now. Have to admit I miss you all and could use a hug but I put myself in this situation, go me, heh. Anyways, I love you all and will update as time goes by. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 2nd, 2009
8:41 pm	What Pet Are You Like? You Are Like a Dog You are a natural best friend. You are very loyal and faithful. In your eyes, your friends can do no wrong. You will stick with them no matter what. You have a protective streak, and you can be downright nasty if you're being threatened. More than anything else, you are playful and laid back. You truly live in the moment. What Pet Are You Like? (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 28th, 2009
3:08 pm	WoW Account Selling my world of warcraft account for cheap, have 2 80's and a bunch of 70+. If you are interested just email me = ) Hope everyone is doing well! (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 19th, 2009
10:59 am	Study? So on my way to work this morning and the news comes on the radio. Spouting through the normal crap and then the chick says, and I quote "Also there have been new studies that show more people are eating at fast food restraunts because its faster", then the report goes onto to traffic. Seriously though how much money was dumped into that study? I mean fast food being fast? Who knew. (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 5th, 2009
5:32 am	Police Radar Just reading your post about police. Cool thing about Aus is they actually announce where the police are setting up speeding radars, they announce it on the radio and on tv showing you an exact map of where they are. The reasoning for this is because they want to slow traffic down in that area and if people know about the radars then that high traffic area will be more safe. They arent bastard cops working off commission like ours back home. Hope you all are doing well! *hugs* (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 2nd, 2008
4:12 pm	USA or Bust! So it is official. Drew myself and a couple friends from here will be in the states from October 28th until December 3rd. Due to money issues we will not be going to Oregon on this trip. We will be in and around Disneyland from October 28th until November 6th, then we will be in Vegas from the 8th until the 16th and going to the grand canyon somewhere in that week as well, then in Palm Springs pretty much until we leave. If anyone is able to meet up with us it would be most enjoyable if not, of course I understand. I have all of our trip details if anyone is interested please let me know. The trip to the grand canyon will be on a train, http://www.thetrain.com/reservations/ has all the info, we will be going parlor class if anyone can join again just let me know, its for a train ride there one night stay and a train ride back. Its going to be awesome to go on the glass walk way = ) On another note our company here is doing awesome. Called D & D Cleaning (God I hope someone gets that reference) we do contract cleaning for businesses, its what is funding our trip so its not going too bad. We are hoping to expand more once we get back from our trip in the states. Also started playing Warhammer, played my first game of blood bowl the other day and we are starting necromunda soon as well. All I wanna do is paint the little figures : P Oh and we got another cat he is 6 months old now and he is tonkinese, however when we first got him he was black so we named him Lord Vader, Vader for short. But now he is turning brown >.< Still a beautiful kitty, I just call him pooper or booger. He isnt the smartest so I figure he doesnt deserve to be called Vader yet. Anywho, I miss you all and hope this finds you well. Keep in touch. *hugs* D Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 19th, 2008
7:30 pm	So angry... Ok, Drew's mother and brother, whom we happen to live with, are alcoholics and his brother Bill is a massive pot smoker as well. Now a lot of you know my past, I grew up with an alcoholic and my sister was a major drug abuser she has even gone to jail for it in the past. Bill has come into our room before and stolen money from us, he admitted it later by paying us back what he stole and saying oh yeah by the way I stole this from you. He is NEVER allowed in our room without supervision. How did he get into our room you ask? We gave Drew's mother a key to our room because like everything else in this house the water heater is broken so she has to come in turn it on for a shower then back off and lock up our room. Mind you we have never said anything about the fact the house if falling apart or that its always dirty, we keep this to ourselves. Bill went to her saying we gave him permission to go into our room. She doesnt ask us if this ok, just hands him the key. Then when she needs to get back into our room for the waterheater she finds she no longer has the key and Bill has lost it. Both deny losing it, and we let his mother know never to give a key to him again. Moving on. Drew and I have turned a two car garage into a full on studio apartment fully independent of the house, all we have to go inside for is the shower and toilet. This is the ONLY reason why we still live here. We dont have to pay rent or any bills other then our internet, this was OPENLY offered by Drew's mother, we have offered to pay bills in the past and she has said that all we need to do is help her when she is in a pinch and thats all. We rarely interact with these two because we both loath alcoholics and Bill is just a freakin addict of everything. Yesterday Drew and I celebrated our 2 year anniversary, Drew's mother knew this as well as Bill. So we get home from dinner last night, it was an AWESOME day and the best food I have had since being in australia, it was a steakhouse all done up in Texas style flag and everything, reminded me of home so much. We walk in the door to the house, tell Drew's mother about our day realise she is wasted and go to leave. Before we leave we give her the spare key, its been getting really cold here so we thought the sooner we give it to her the better. Drew says and I quote: There are just two things with giving you this key, please dont give it to bill for any reason and also if youre not sure if we are home knock loudly on the door to keep you from walking in on us while we sleep. He says this calmly and not mean at all and the she fucking looses it! Screams not to call her stupid and she doesnt want to talk about Bill and proceeds to go on about how her house is falling apart and how we look down on her and so on. A drunks rant of rage spilling all of her inside guilt and blaming others for her short comings, oh fuck me I know this all too well. I know nothing good can come of this, no way to talk sense or reason into her and I have nothing to say to a drunk person family or not, I know better thank you. So I go to leave, and the righteous bitch has the gall to yell and me and say "Stay here". So I calmly looked at her and said I have nothing to say to you. And left. I went outside and I shook so hard my shoulders ache today, I cried so hard that my head still hurts and my eyes sting. I have not been this angry since I was in my teens. I just keep thinking how dare you yell at me, how dare you. I hear from Drew later how she ranted and raved about people not paying their bills, and how Drew shouldnt yell and call people names and how its all his fault he started this fight. So, what do you do? I am still not speaking to her for I have nothing to say, I fear if she wants me to talk to her that 14 years of pain and anguish will spill open again and I will not let this happen, not for her and not for anyone. So I told Drew we either move out or I go home, that simple. I choose not to have this sort of vile in my life any longer, so we are moving out hopefully in the next fortnight. Fuck them, fuck their dependencies, fuck their lying and deceitfulness. Just fuck them thats all, so not worth it. It's upsetting because I am so angry, I never thought I could get this angry again and yet here I sit it bothers me I let her make me this angry. I just think its not her, its her drinking. Funny thing is, his mother drew and I all just had an awesome holiday together. One of their relative got drunk and she got so upset she came and stayed in our room, she was a crying mess going on about how mean she was and how nothing she said made much sense. We comforted his mother and had her stay the night and everyting, I was hoping it might be a sobering experience for her. Guess not. Sorry for the rant everyone, I dont know how to settle and I thought maybe writing and expressing would help me feel better. Thanks for listening. Love to you all and I miss you guys! Current Mood: enraged (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 14th, 2008
12:49 am	Trip time again Hola peoples! I wanted to let everyone know that Drew and I will be in the states from October 28th until December 4th, at least thats the plan so far. Because of the lack of funds I will not be able to make it Oregon this time *cries* However, if anyone wants to meet up with us in Vegas or Disneyland we will be more then happy! We will be in disneyland from November 1st till the 8th then Vegas until the 16th. At one of these points we will be taking a train ride to the Grandcanyon as well, if anyone wants to join us for this let me know and I can get you the details. Also we are bringing two friends from Oz with us, they will only be with us for Disneyland, vegas and the train trip. It will be awesome though because Drew will be there for Halloween, my favorite holiday = ), and Thanksgiving. We already have lodging so its a deifinte that we will be coming, so really if anyone can make it for even a day I would love to see you! On other news Drew and I have started our own business. It's called D & D Cleaning *giggles*, we do office cleaning on a 12 month contract basis. So far so good, I figure one of three things: We will do a supurb job make lots of money I will pay off all my bad credit in the states and be able to move back home and start my dream job company with Allee if he is still up for it. Or we will barely scrape by but be our own bosses so deal with it until something better comes along or we retire. And then last but not least its a huge flop and lesson learned move on. Kinda hoping for the first myself. So far I am learning SO much about taxes, 401K's, and everything else that will be uber helpful in running a company. So far we only have one contract, and two personal contracts so they arent a 12 month gaurantee. So if we get another contract between now and when we are buying our plane tickets, we might be able to go to Oregon but I am not counting on it. For another change of subject I have the awesome joy of getting an endoscopy exam sometime this week. For the second time in 6 months I had to go to the emergency room due to emence chest and abdomin pain. So that should be exciting. Anyways, it would be awesome if anyone could join us when we go on this trip I miss you all so much! Just let me know and I will give you all the details! kk love you bye bye! (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 26th, 2007
7:22 am	BFG FTW Ok for all those computer geeks, I have to gloat about our new computers: Intel 2 duo 3.0ghz Silent Knight heat sink/fan ASUS P5K Intel P35 BFG 8800-GTS w/life time warrenty 750 watt power supply 2 gig ram Soprano Thermaltake black steel case, go to www.gamedude.com.au under case with no pcu, look for soprano 19" LCD flat screen mointors Normally I wouldnt be ok spending so much money on a computer, however when your really not able to do much else other then wake up go to work come home and sleep, even on some weekends, its nice to have something to relax. And OMG how I do not miss my old pc, it literally sounder like a vacuum cleaner the fans were so loud. So anyways, this thing rocks, might even have to take a pic of it and post it! Ok done gloating...for now. *grins* Hope everyone is doing well! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 11th, 2007
7:48 pm	Ello Wanting to say Grats to Zeb for getting job. so YAY Zeb!!! Steve, you rock, you always have and always will. I wonder what the shirt was though, you have my curiosity peaked ; ) as always. Hope your doing well, and if you could please send me your mailing address, now that I work it would be nice to send you something...although Oz doesn't have much to offer in the mailing sense, and I dont think Absinthe is allowed to be mailed, course you may have that there I dunno. Dan good on you for taking up the dancing, you talked about it for so long, you should post some pics for all of us to see. Portia I am wondering how you are doing as you have not posted recently, I owe you $20 also so I need your banking details so I can transfer it over, figure doing it through paypal might be the best, let me know. Becky hello I know you're out there! Spastic wave to Jenna *waves frantically* hope you're doing alright! And Lewis Hi!! *waves again* And to anyone I may have missed oops my bad moo moo moo...doesn't sound the same when you type it. Anyways, things here are good, weather is a bit crazy, work is good, I am head of my own dept in about 9 weeks, yay me. Got a 42 inch flat screen, LG ftw. Going car shopping in a month or so, and almost have all our debts paid another $5000 to go, which is nothing compared to what I started with : P Be checking back every so often, anyone of you at ANYTIME is more then welcome to you know, email me or something, hint hint nudge nudge...... bye bye. *hugs to all* Deanna Current Mood: content (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 13th, 2007
5:52 pm	Cutting the net off Hey just a note to all we are shutting our net off for a bit, hoping no more then a month. Those who I can call I will, I know this sucks but due to family issues and certain people being a pain figured this is just the easiest thing to due, considering Drew and I work now we wont be on much anyways. My love to all and hope to chat soon!! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 10th, 2007
8:04 am	Good Times I am now back home in Oz. Just wanted to say thank you to everyone for hanging out with me and putting up with my crazy schedule. It was really good to see you all again and hopefully I will be back soon and not a couple years. Either way though I will be back, I miss you guys already! Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 10th, 2007
10:43 am	Coming home!! Hey its final I will be coming home for a visit!! I will be arriving at PDX at 2:51pm on March 15th. I have to leave on the 27th though so not a long stay but I hope that I will be able to see you all and spend some time with you!!! Current Mood: ecstatic (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 6th, 2007
6:50 pm	Resumes..oh how I loath thee So after about what..7 months of being able to do nothing and being dirt poor guess what my 4th, yes 4th, case worker told me!? "all you need is this form filled out and you will be able to work while waiting on a decision of your visa". Talk about wanting to go postal on someone. So anyways getting down to the point, is anyone good at making resumes? I have the majority of mine made up but I am truely horrible at it and would like someone to help me if they can. It would be GREATLY apprecitated. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 29th, 2007
5:03 pm	Pan's what!? Ok went to go see pan's labyrinth, I had veiwed the trailers and read the critics notes, not like they normally count for much anyways, and really thought "Wow its going to be a great fantasy movie"....for those who havent seen it, stay at home and watch something like schindler's list. To me this movie was just as depressing, only thing was Pan's has more gore. Maybe one or two some what ok parts in it, but overall huge let down for a movie thats got 6 acadamy award nominations. Has anyone seen it? Maybe they just gave it a different spin over here advertising it to be "A grown up Alice in Wonderland", cause last I checked in wonderland, the fairies dont get their heads bit off. Current Mood: disappointed (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 20th, 2006
10:07 am	Learning experience Ok for anyone thinking of wanting to move to Australia....forget about it, dont do it. There is a list of things that had I known before I got here I would have reconsidered. The list may sound petty to you and small, but think about this: What is it that makes your home, home? Because to me its: Going to either Starbucks or Coffee people and having a chat with friends Being able to watch the seasons, enjoy the color of fall and snow of winter In the middle of the night after drinking being able to grab some taco bell Have your friends to call or just show up and hang out whenever you want Being able to know what your wanting in a grocery store and knowing it will be there. Getting a pumpkin pie and covering it in whip cream, they dont have pumpkin pie here. Knowing if you wanted you could go to the beach, desert, mountains, country or city all about 1 hour away from another. The list goes on. Bottom line I miss you all, its Christmas season and damnit I am homesick. I choose this time to let everyone know I am with you in spirit, I am there driving at night enjoying the Christmas lights and a hot cup of cider, I am giving you a hug as I walk through the door carrying cookies for everyone, I am spending a moment admiring your tree and the happiness it gives you, and this year I would be the one wanting everyone to go to Portland and watch the fireworks. To all of you, Merry Christmas and may you have a Happy New Year! *HUGS* (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, October 20th, 2006
5:37 am	ghost in a shell and no not the anime. I have had 3 close family members pass away in the past 3 weeks and I am having a hard time dealing with it, ontop of that I have had the flu. I promise to post when things smooth out. I miss you all more then anything and just reading over some old posts and recent ones makes me want to get a plane tomorrow, I cry so easily right now. I love you all and miss you. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 26th, 2006
10:04 am	Good things come to those who wait...I hope Well all I need now is my police background check sent to me from the states and I will have everything for my visa application. Then its just a matter of about 2-3 months until immigration gets back to me letting me know if I can stay here or not. If I can getting a job will be cake I have already been offered a banking position and also a job at the horse race tracks in Brisbane, it will be interesting to see when the time comes what I go for. As far as not being able to stay here.....I dunno. Coming home is what I will do but its a matter of how where to stay and all that jazz. But alas we will see what happens. I miss you all greatly and hope that soon I will have pics to show everyone. Jeannasu's picture of the lorikeet is something we have here that flies around freely, I like watching them in the morning in our front yard they are so beautiful. Had aussie strawberries for the first time yesterday, all of them are HUGE and taste omg so good! We just got done paiting our flat also, its very nice, our feature wall is a dark greyish blue called harbour blue, then our other walls are white bricks but have a dry wall trim which we painted that a sand color. All in all I am happy but sore from it, also found out if you dont stir ceiling paint you end up doing like 3 coats and feeling like a dumbass in the end. Anywho good luck to you Jeannasu on getting that job, and hope everyone is doing well. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 5th, 2006
10:38 am	Last night I had a dream about all of you, we just went out to a bar and had drinks. I even had to follow Zeb and Becky in their car. Steve, Dan, Portia, Jenna, and many more were there. Dreaming something like this, everyone getting along just having fun, should've made me happy. I mean shit its the first I would have seen any of you in what.....8 mos. Instead I was so sad I could've cried, just thinking about it I get all teary. I miss you all so much its insane. At times I want to just run back home and leave everything behind, but I cant and wont. O'well though, I did this to myself and I guess I really shouldnt be complaining, I guess I just wanted to say again I miss you guys. I hope everything is going well for you in the married life Jenna : ) And Portia I hope that promotion you got has been awesome! Hopefully Steve is doing alright and I dont even know if Dan reads this anymore, but since you never emailed me back I hope you are doing alright in your new home and enjoying life like you always seem to. And as for Zeb and Becky, we should have gone out more often, I think it would have been a lot of fun. Could you say hi to Kathrine for me if you see her? I think she has my Legend movie. And what the heck is Lewis up to anyways! Damn I miss that guy. And what about Mark and Amy are they living the happy married life also? I am way too out of touch anymore. (6 Comments |Comment on this)